Published! Low Concept vol.1 and The Gathering vol.4

So, let's just mention the elephant right now: my mission statement in the "Where Am I?" column hasn't exactly been accurate for a while now. Ever since the Portland move, new blog posts have been few and far between and, I'll be honest, I don't know when they're going to pick up again. I've had many things to distract me from the Farther Room project, some legit, some ridiculous. Farther Room ain't dead, though. I haven't given up. I just still need to refocus and, contrary to previous statements, that's going to take time.

I figure the least I can do, though, is to keep you updated on my career progress, seeing as said career was the driving force behind the creation of this blog.

I've (finally) had some stories published!

The first was actually released last month:

Low Concept: an EOC anthology

Conceived, executed, and birthed from the warm fuzzy womb of the 11 O'Clock Comics podcast message board community, Low Concept is what happens when someone goes, "Hey, wouldn't this be a cool idea?" and then actually does it. Contained within are 140 pages of humor, adventure, drama, weirdness, sincerity and an absolute and unabashed love of the comic book medium. There's a story in there for everyone, and each one of them is satisfying in its own way.

And on page 49 you will find my first ever published comic, drawn by Steve J. Thompson.


I'll probably eventually put the whole thing on my website, but for now, let's just call this the free taste.

You can purchase the book for ridiculously cheap HERE!


Second, we have another anthology originally conceived on a comic message board:

The Gathering, vol.4: Into the Abyss

The Gathering is a quarterly publication, started by members of the Jinxworld message board community, which has received tons of critical praise and good press. Each issue is based around a respective theme and features short stories by amateur and pro comic creators alike. The horror themed fourth issue includes a two pager written by me and drawn by my long time collaborator, Matt Shults.


You can buy it (and all the other issues) at the publisher's website HERE!

Also there's still a few days left on the Kickstarter campaign to fund future issues of the comic. Check out the details HERE.


So there you have it! I haven't been wholly unproductive during my hiatus.

Further updates to come... eventually.

The Truth

What’s the truth?


There’s a question for the ages. The meaning of life? The reason we’re all here? The grand design? The point of it all?

What is the POINT?

I’ll be honest; I’ve never cared to find out. I pride myself on having found philosophical and existential balance pretty early in life. I was 17 years old, pacing around my apartment, worrying what I should do about my failing grades, my future college career and my life beyond, and I had this sudden, calming epiphany that it didn’t matter. All the shit crushing in on me… didn’t matter. I thrust my arms out to the side with the force and conviction of a shepherd parting waves and I said, “It doesn’t fucking matter.”

And it didn’t.

I didn’t do too well in school. My brain didn’t jibe with that establishment -- which shouldn’t be mistaken for a generic, punk-poseur aversion to “The Establishment” -- I’m just saying the way things were done there -- the energies involved -- the vibe -- wasn’t me. I didn’t like the idea of worrying myself into a nervous breakdown because my own desires, inspirations and meditations didn’t fit into the structure of a future I’d built for myself based on society’s blueprint.

Does that make sense?

It was MY blueprint. MY life. I was who I was and I did what I did and I enjoyed myself. Probably not to the degree that I might have liked; I still feel like I missed out on a lot of my youth when I was young. But at least I clung to those inspirations. Three years later, I would introduce myself to a table of creative professionals by giving my name and adding, “and I wouldn’t be here today if I was a good student in school.”

That moment -- the one with the "F" word, I mean -- shaped my view on life. It’s the sort of clarity a person gains when they’re riding a malfunctioning plane into the Atlantic and they realize, “Fuck… I can’t do anything to stop this. I am not in control of this. I preside over myself alone and the rest of the world is just a ride.”

Except, instead, I was 17 years old and worried about meeting the expectations of imaginary people I realized I didn’t give a shit about. I’ve always been sort of an early psychological bloomer. I think I hit my mid-life crisis around 20.

So, it didn’t fucking matter, and from that sprung an entire philosophy on life, molded around the idea of being productively selfish. Do what makes you happy. Get what you want. Contribute to a more positive world by not walking around with a cloud over your head all the time. I couldn’t always follow this philosophy, but who among us can? Even Christians have confession.

One major part of that philosophy was the willingness to not care. People struggle their entire lives with questions of religion and faith and purpose and meaning, and I refused to. God was whatever I chose to believe he was. A mixture of all the good stuff and none of the bad. Did I believe in the devil and hell? Nope. Great storytelling concept, though. Was I interested in others thrusting their beliefs upon me? Hell no. Stop distracting me. Was I eager to share these beliefs and seek out others who felt the same? Not really. I cared more about what other people thought of the comics, movies, and music that I loved. THAT was the shit that mattered to me, because THAT’s what made me happy. Creativity was my religion, and I would wage war on the non-believers with the fury of a thousand angry nerds. But the god stuff just didn’t bother me. I figured, when the time came, I’d learn. Until then, I was gonna do right by me.

This didn’t mean I wasn’t curious… of course I was. I’m a problem-solver by nature, and the only thing worse for me than not knowing something is KNOWING that I don’t know. But the scope of this particular problem was beyond my ability to decypher, at least while still doing everything else in my life that I wanted to. So, like a person who’s resigned themselves to withholding judgement until the end of the movie, I just decided to sit back and enjoy the story. No spoilers would be sought.

I always had an ear out for them, though. Every philosophical discussion or passionate rant I was party to, I paid close attention and listened for the ring of truth. Not judging, not rejecting, but accepting everything, comforted by the notion that I didn’t really need to know.

Still, certain things -- the things that really resonated -- found their way into my daily life. I believe in the power of positive thinking, not because my father would drill this stuff into my head relentlessly when I was younger, but because through my own path, I found that thinking more positively made me feel better. And that made the people I interacted with feel better. And those people in turn made others feel better. And when people feel good, they make less mistakes. And when less mistakes are made, things don’t go wrong as often. Like a stone dropped into a pond, each of us creates ripples, and those are the ripples I want to create.

(As it happens, this is exactly what my father had been trying to explain to me all those years ago, just in his own way and his own words, which weren’t the ones I needed at the time. Or maybe all I needed was time.)

Have I gotten off topic…? Not really. Because it all leads back to the title of this post. The truth.

I’ve never looked for the truth. But I have kept my mind open enough to discover bits and pieces of it along the way. Part of that is corroborating reports. When two people say the same thing, it can be a coincidence. When three or four or five people say the same thing, it could be intentional. When several people, separated by years, with no reason to interact or even pay attention to each other start saying the same weird things in different words… well now that’s something of interest.

It’s the “in different words” part that makes it true for me. You know the belief that all messianic figures throughout the world’s religions may actually be differing accounts of the same person? I believe that. The similarities in structure, if not detail, are too apparent, and the storytellers have no interest in each other. Somewhere between conflict and indifference lies truth.

So, what is truth?

Y’know what? It doesn’t fucking matter… but the problem has a shape now. It has a perceivable scope. I can see both ends of it and I’m curious.

The truth lies hidden in the words and works of Alan Moore, where all time is simultaneous, art is true magic, and society is becoming steam.

The truth lies hidden in the life and mind of Grant Morrison, where magic is a proven act of sheer will, and the next level of consciousness means releasing your personal identity to merge into something communal.

The truth lies hidden in the often angry, sometimes cynical, always passionate words of Bill Hicks, in which “all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, and we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively.”

The truth lies hidden in the experiences of Stephen Tobolowsky, who tells a story of a time in his life when he could hear “tones,” like voices (music?) from another (farther?) room, which told him things he couldn’t possibly know about the pasts of random people.

Listen for yourself.

The truth lies hidden in the life of my own family member, who has been telling me these things, in different words, since I was a child, and who put his money where his mouth was last year by quitting his medications and curing himself of a debilitating disease through the power of sheer will and belief.

These aren’t the words of Joseph Campbell or Carlos Castaneda or Michio Kaku or Seth. These aren’t studies I’ve pursued. These are snippets from the lives of artists. These are tiny shards of truth that have stuck in my mind unintentionally. If Creativity is my religion (and it is), these people are my prophets.

Somewhere in their experiences, and the experiences of many others who have not yet crossed my path, lies the truth.

It’s not a truth I’m going to seek out. I have other things to focus on. Stories yet to tell. This is just one of them. And just because I’ve written it doesn’t mean I’m going to become one of those armchair philosophers, tirelessly sussing out the meaning of life, the universe and everything. I’m perfectly content with “42” and everyone else can rest happily in their own beliefs.



Ultimately, this is just a blog post. A collection of words and links. Its only meaning is what you invest in it.

It doesn’t fucking matter.